tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56377422011-04-22T08:00:02.847+08:00already 21, still very much sexually deprived. in france. adore my friends. love ***.blacknoreply@blogger.comBlogger1831100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1138354022208247152006-01-27T17:26:00.000+08:002006-01-27T17:27:47.313+08:00

Find me now at http://blackpinky.blogspot.com

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1126712842116738982005-09-14T23:43:00.000+08:002005-09-14T23:47:22.126+08:00

how are u girls? i've decided that we shld mail each other for updates! alrights? i just went to paris a few days ago. it was absolutely beautiful. driving on the french autoroutes was superbly fun too. went up to abt 180-200km/h. loy went to like 220km/h max. mad. chris would enjoy driving here. bah. ah well, leave me your email addresses on this comments box and i'll mail u girls the next time

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i've kindda moved to http://blackpinky.multiply.comcheers to that. i've uploaded more photos and i'll update there yah.loy's with me now. he's sleeping in my bed. glad...

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that's the tres jolie view i get from right outside my window. it just took me like 15 mins to upload this picture using my 56k connection. woah, i feel primitive in this country. if u can't tell, it's the graveyard. but i think it's pretty. all the white crosses sprouting from across the green field behind the trees. the shadows fall so prettily on the ground in the evening and in the morning,

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bonjour bonjour mes amis et mon cheri! Il y a plus temps depuis j'ecrive ici. ok screw the french alright. i'm having tremendous difficulty as to using the keyboard, cos it's bloody european and french. my letters M A and keys like ' ; , are all jumbled up. hopefully i can get my dial up working ASAP in my room. YES, dial-up. your eyes are not playing tricks on you. i'm in the computer lab now

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one of the khai islands at phuket. it was beautiful. bliss...

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apologise for the long long hiatus of entries. been feeling too stifled to express my feelings. i am feeling happy these days. very happy with loy. if u were to ask me what i see in loy, i wldn't be able to piece my thoughts into words coherent enough to express myself. my girl friends are probably gonna freak upon reading this entry of my bold admittance of my feelings for him. the looming

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at Eski bar, it was so darn cooooold, like 5 degrees? i was in shorts. brrRrrrr...at the zoo zoo zoo!!!my beloved loy exhibiting his favourite finger. or was in going into his mouth? yucks.at char's house. half-drunk?char's so STYLE.the 3 freaks. leader in the middle.

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pictures that is. view my numerous pictures online! finally. i've revived my online photo album.www.snapfish.comusername: www.elishalim@hotmail.compassword: camerawhoresdidn't realise that snapfish doesn't allow strangers to view my albums without an account. so use mine ya.

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i can't find my valium. maybe i should take a few to calm myself. or would i rather be drugged by my ever loving friends of Jose, Jim, Jack, Pinot and sorts. had the greatest tiff with Kevin last night. I was in the car with loy (backseat) talking about his (ex) gf and me talking about kevin. kevin walked past and saw me being 'intimate' with loy. which is totally untrue. we were just

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i fell out with navin again. last night when i was in loy's car. navin called. i have no idea why i lied to him. but i said i was with chris and trudy. not too smart i guess cos it was so quiet in the car, he knew i wasn't with my noisy girl friends. got busted. i have no idea why i lied cos i've got no responsibilities whatsoever to him. just didn't want him to blow things up i guess.he doesn't

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Part Expert KisserYou're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettablePart Playful KisserKissing is a huge game for you, a way to flirt and play You're the first

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Your Porn Star Name is: Cumisha JonesGet your own Porn Star Nameoh god, CUMisha. i'm bored bored bored.

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i had a tough tough tough day at work today. i was allocated a total of 11 households in a single block. i was ecstatic at first, having to walk less around the neighbourhood i would be in. god, when i got to blk 217 at amk ave 1., it was a 1-room flat. initially, i had no qualms whatsoever in working in such an environment. but boy, was i wrong. most of the flats had a little stench or the

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What's Your Animal Magnetism?elisha, you're a Polar Bear in the wild world of love.You're one clever and complex cub, Polar Bear. Sure, you don't hibernate like most of your cousins, but you're not exactly one to spend all your time chasing tail either. Still, it seems you don't have any trouble reeling in worthy partners with that alluring wit of yours. You're a smarty who isn't afraid to delve

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short hair? long hair?(no adobe tricks here to make my pictures look better. sorry ah.)when my hair grows long, long enough for me to hold it in a small pony-tail. I'll have the girly temptation to leave my hair long. and look just like any other girl on the streets. but well, having long hair makes u feel more womanly? HA? hell no to me i guess. i shall chop chop chop my hair off

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OH FREAK! i made a 50 dollar phone call last night. how annoying and i'm so freaking broke saving up for my trip. tmd. stupid dzul and that stupid phonecall.i'm having 2nd thoughts about going for my exchange. if know i don't, i'll regret. i know if i do, it'll be a struggle. language alone will be a tough obstacle. i'm already so far in the process and so near in experiencing a life away from

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i've come to discover the hassle and preparation and MONEY involved in throwing a party. initially, i thought i'll just book a chalet to spend some time with my friends but somehow it has morphed into some orgy-ish black party CUM birthday celebration. plus, i've decided on leaving to France for exchange. so yah, farewell party as well. ha. i act like i've got tonnes of friends that will miss me.

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guys, I'll need my most beautiful friends to bring some hard liquor. So kindly please leave me comments to indicate what you're bringing so I can make some arrangements. dick, plastic, slut, freak, FAT cl, ball. faustina, winlin, grace, zhongyu, eileen, jon too!!!! u guys have no choice but to bring at least one bottle each. quick go hunt. muacks. hee...

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waking up at three in the afternoon, finishing a plate of oily fried noodles just made me feel really really FAT. i've come to realise that my life is so inactive(physically). maybe i should get myself playing hockey again. call my perverted coach up, then i'll be able to go down and hit some balls. i feel happy playing ball(s). lol. friends and i went down to walawala last night. boy, the queue

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at MK steamboat restaurantjoyce and diana in their final attempt (in obtaining gd results)cute lil chickies at chatuchak market

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finished my exams.been to bangkok and back.started on my job.all my friends are on attachment.still feeling a little sick.in desperate need of money (TOTALLY BROKE!)my room's still in a mess.I need a bigger wardrobe.I want a better job.french, france, frenchmen here I come! ha.

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it's odd how i love to blog at such wee hrs. just came back from some beer and KTV with my girlfriends. ha. it's really funny how we go mad over some songs. especially our resident freak, christina pang.now that i'm officially outta hall, shifting out tmr. i'll never get to see kevin again. guess knowing that navin will be reading all this and i can't bear to hurt him any further. i shall not

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think i'm ultimately pmsing. got pissed with kevin just becos he grabbed my hand too tight while fighting and commented on how i flashed at edwin, shawn and alvin when i bent over to reach for my zen micro. i hate it when he doesnt really say sorry at all, abt anything. i hate it when he thinks that i shldn't get angry over matters like this. well, he's an idiot. i swear.called navin today to see

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Put an X next to things that you have done before (i'll be more truthful than trudy.don't worry...)(x) Snuck out of the house(x) Gotten lost in your city(x) Seen a shooting star( ) Had a serious surgery(x) Gone out in public in your pajamas(x) Kissed a stranger(x) Hugged a stranger(x) Been in a fist fight(x) Been arrested( ) Done drugs(x) Had alcohol(x) Laughed and had milk/coke come out of your

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i love the way how my girl friends manage to make my day. just sitting down drinking beer, playing cards. singing along to senseless tunes and laughing our heads off, oblivious to the pple around us. ha. i love the way how we act like girls going frantic, shopping online or in malls.i love the way how when i'm sad and down being the last to finish my exams, they throw me a nice surprise even

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fuck. i wrote a chuck and my computer crashed on me. damn it damn it.summary:1. I love my red zen micro2. got accepted for exchange to INSA Lyon, France. if i get my fellowship award, i'll definitely be going. if not... we'll see how. heh3. things are so over between navin and I4. I need to atttend a 3-mth french course if i'm really going to france.5. I might fail my exams this semester. (

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am i really kind or do i do it out of certain fear that i might get punished in return if i refused such an act? is that the root of kindness? an old mn approached me today as i was walking along one of bishan's numerous steets. he said he was lost and had no money to go home. he was well-dressed, spoke well, smelled chlean (from a dist of maybe 1/2 a metre? so i supposed he takes regular showers

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i'm really sorry for all i've done. pls pick up my calls. i've realisesd that u're the one that truly care for me. pls pls pls talk to me again. where are u? have u been taking care of yourself? i feel so stupid to have done what i've done. pls forgive me.

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Milk and toast and honey make it sunny on a rainy Saturday, he-he-heyMilk and toast, some coffee take the stuffiness out of days you hate, you really hateSlow morning news pass me byI try not to analyze but didn't he blow my mind this timeDidn't he blow my mind?(Here he comes)To bring a little lovin', honeyTo take away the hurt insideIs everything that matters to meIs everything I want in

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things have been quite bad between navin and i. i'm really sorry for not calling u last night and leaving my phone in my friend's room. i hope u get well soon.girls, remember what our sisterhood is? pls look for it. it encompasses my heartfelts.

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it's the rooster year! my friends and i have been crocking like a mother hen to attract the chicken tile at mahjong. haha. u're 25, been dating for a yr and a half. you still don't know if you'll get married. hmmmz... just found out that my friend has Sudden Arrhythmia Death Syndromes (SADS)

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sunday was the last day we spoke. it wasn't pleasant at all. he hasn't called for 3 days. all the things that we do...

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for a moment, i thought the title of this entry sounded like sunday morning, that maroon 5 song. oh well, i'm home alone on a sunday afternoon with a planned effort to finish my assessment exercise. with a cup of freshly brewed coffee and episodes and episodes of sex and the city playing on dvd. i have succumbed to this feeling of - loneliness. thought having fresh coffee and self-baked muffins (

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have u ever wondered why skin colour matters so much? or rather it is the race that matters. to an infant, a black man or a white man would still be a man to him. but this sick society has morphed us into creatures that judge others with reasons most unreasonable and excuses unexcusable. sterotyping is the most pernicous thing that i admit a victim of.my dad told me last wk that i must date a

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i'm vegetarian for a wk. but ooops I ate chicken last night! this is what I ate for lunch today at Canteen A.

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okay

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Domkrykan. The famous protestant church in Uppsala. It's really beautiful.

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Navin and I. 

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snowing on X'mas day! 

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on the cruise Cinderalla to Finland. Do I look like a Princes?. Ha. 

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i'm back from my trip. and before you know it, it's 2005. omg, i'm going to turn 21 this yr. seems like a scary thought. i've always wondered why 21 years old is a big hoo-ha thing. i don't even think i'll delibrately hold a birthday party or what. now that navin is not with me, i don't even know if he'll be with me when i turn 21. u promised me bun! have been sick the past few days, since i got

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you haven't changed the slightest bit. in fact, i think u've changed for the worse. guess your mom is pretty right. you're getting from bad to worse. when i confront u abt your temper, u'll just respond with "you're not any better." thank you very much. i may not have a fantastic temper but trust me your temper sucks. you react to every slight lil irritation or humps in your daily life with your

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oh man. had my presentation today. still can't do listening for nuts. talk abt conversing fluently. i can only speak within my very limit vocab and bad grammar. haha. paid for my air-tix today. i'm officially broke. broke broke broke. who will feed me for the next one wk? my results is a mix of feelings. ABBDE. cldn't help but wonder if god is playing me. must my first A come with my first E ( a

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i swear this holiday is like no holiday to me! i've gotta go back to sch on mon, wed, fri for french. choir practices, hockey training. omg. was in sch the whole of last wk. i wish i cld have some REAL holiday! i'm really looking forward to going sweden but my seats are not confirmed yet. bugger! my mom's going to KL tmr morn and that means i'll havta take care of my dog, clean the house and be

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alright, i apologise for my sudden outburst of anger in the previous entry. i'm feeling much better now. sometimes u don't understand why u act or react a certain manner and when u realised u've acted impulsively. your actions are already delivered, at a pt of no return and when u want to redeem yourself, u find yourself in a position so unfavourable u don't know what to do or say. that was

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i'm so fucking pissed i swear i'll kill anybody standing in front of me. he says i'm not doing anything to save enough money to visit him. damn it. who is the stupid idiot that left singapore in the first place? every single day, u just talk about you and your mother. she's your god u say. u worship her. yah good. another mummy's boy. another dzul. i'm like so fucking glad to be with guys this

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my cousin got married today. it was held at a very modest church down-town. getting married isn't that glamarous and fun-filled as i pictured it to be. it's not as perfect as it supposed to be. with lil oopps here and there. the mike malfunctions at times and your grandmother gets missing. TV's blasting beside me, can't blog much. don't seem to be able to blog much anymore. i miss navin.

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howdy! this humble lil site of mine has gone dormant. cob's webs all over! partly due to me extensive lack of enthusiasm (ok, largely) to blog. it just occured to me 5 secs ago that i actually own a blog! heh. and i just read your msges ghaz. one of my faithful blog fans. lol. u lucky bitch, enjoying yourself with 3 hot girls as flatmates in germany! while i'm stuck in singapore with smelly diana

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nobody blogs anymore cos we're all too lazy! i've been watching tv for 3 straight hrs at home. my god. i'm having a splitting headache. maybe i need some proper food. i ate rojak for dinner just now. but it tates horrible. my friends no longer meet for supper. we're all so busy with our own commitments. whatever commitments. or their lack of enthusiasm to drive or when their 4 wheels are not

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i wish i wld panick earlier. i wish i wldn't wish to start preparing for my exams earlier. arghhhh. ALERT! exams are in approximately 1 mnths time and i haven't exactly started my revision. i spent the whole day doing nothing but sleep and eat. will be going out soon. heading to wala at holland v. looking forward to some ice-cold beer and gf music. i'm beginning to suspect that my classmates

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i'm stuck. not stuck in life, not stuck with my bf or anything. it's much worse than that. i'm stuck in sch, NTU. Nanyang technological university, situated in the beautiful most western part of this pretty island, boon lay. the story goes like this. i wanted to go home after my quiz this afternoon. taking a train home for a first time this semester. but in the end, i slept and i slept the whole

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spoke to angela on the phone. she has become so much more sensible. i'm so glad for her. quarrelled with navin again today. i may not know many things but i do know that my love for him is slowly diminishing. it's as though the waves out in the oceans that seperates us is slowly washing away my feelings for him. it's like how a tree can't take too many blows and will eventually give way? i feel

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i'm absolutely depressed. i just formatted my computer (on my own!) last night and this morning it screwed up again. it's non-functional. there's no display or whatsoever of my desktop! i'm going crazy. damn it. hate it. wish i cld dump my computer to somebody to fix. sigh. can't possibly bring it home for my bro to fix yah. why can't it just work properly? it's only abt a yr old. i'm so damn

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I kindda miss you.

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i feel like a girl all over again. just got back from wala wala. the music was great. the band was gd. the lead singer was perfect. sigh. i'm such a wuss. angela was hilarious. chris is getting skinnier. trudy's fringe is getting longer. i feel like i could kill myself. its a vicious cyle.

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1093970706015565282004-09-01T00:44:00.000+08:002004-09-01T00:45:06.016+08:00

I'll be your crying shoulder I'll be love suicide I'll be better when I'm older I'll be the greatest fan of your life

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1093839490464080652004-08-30T11:53:00.000+08:002004-08-30T12:18:10.466+08:00

went to wala wala last night. they played acoustic, it was gd but think i still prefer 'em on friday nights with their full band. the chinese man came to talk to us. surprisingly friendly i wld say. well well, we're one step closer. ahhaah. my friends wld know what i'm talking abt. i'm at my sch's comp lab now, trying to cramp some info in for my presentation later (they randomly pick names).

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1093780577858574292004-08-29T19:38:00.000+08:002004-08-29T19:56:17.856+08:00

when i'm supposed to be doing my tutorial and preparing my presentation for tmr, here i am mindlessly blogging. i broke up with navin. yes, over the phone. can't really come with a proper reason enough to substantiate my guilt for parting. i was really tired of having to keep up with his expectations of me. tired of having to call him at certain time so he'll be pleased with me. tired of having

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1093672695050691292004-08-28T12:32:00.000+08:002004-08-28T13:58:15.050+08:00

every single day we're exposed to the incessant bombarding of the mass media, whether we like it or not. at the bus-stops, on tv, on the trains, in the toilets even. subconciously, we're influenced. sometimes, i do stop, think, only to realise that i'm actually dragged into this bandwagon, moving in the direction of the main. there's really nothing i'm passionate abt anymore. i don't enjoy

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1093035627037035162004-08-21T04:50:00.000+08:002004-08-21T05:00:27.036+08:00

now that i'm so in love with EIC at walawala, i don't know what to do! i'm infatuated. oh man, he makes me swoon and melt at his vocals. i swear i'll be going there every friday! lol. i really enjoyed myself at walawala tonight. had a red wine and some beer. some crazy little friends i have were there too. met christopher's friends too, keep bumming into 'em there. yah!! there was this man behind

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1092980167081345932004-08-20T13:31:00.000+08:002004-08-21T04:50:51.840+08:00

am at my sch's computer lab now. feeling really tired and a little achy from all the sports and running for days. ahha. but seems like my fitness is not improving much. sigh. maybe i shld run MORE! bah. going for an interview later for some COMEX exhibition thingy at suntec next wk. need to earn some cash. meanwhile, sch has been fine for me. just that i cldn't wake up for lecture this morn.

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1092506801159800272004-08-15T02:02:00.000+08:002004-08-15T02:06:41.160+08:00

i'm sad. i'm depressed. i'm cold. i cry. i hold and i choke. i don't think i can take this relationship anymore. the distance is driving me crazy. u don't make things better. i hate u for leaving. u said u'll stay. i've already been through one and now u're putting me through another. i don't think i will and i don't think i can. this time, i stumble but i will not fall.

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1092429178026503022004-08-14T04:35:00.000+08:002004-08-14T04:32:58.083+08:00

it's going to be 5am soon but i don't feel sleepy at all. maybe it was my long afternoon nap or maybe i had one too many teh tariks at the prata shop just now. haha. anyway, met ryan + diana and trudy at the prata shop for supper just now. ryan seems nice. and trudy's lonely. hahaa. guess i'm pretty alone too. sigh..... everbody's getting attached. where are u dode!!! aRghh. sch hasn't been any

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1091897745673764592004-08-08T00:48:00.000+08:002004-08-08T00:56:48.376+08:00

hellos! my god, it has been so long since i updated my blog. first of all, apologies to my adoring fans. haha. anyway, i'm leaving tmr noon with my grandma, aunty and uncle. how exciting can it get. aahh... well, i'm accompanying my grandma there. that's all. i'm so filial, lol. hope it won't get too boring though. can't wait to taste the yummiest thai food again! well, sch has started for a wk

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1090993150330976152004-07-28T13:37:00.000+08:002004-07-28T13:39:10.330+08:00

6 am day after ChristmasI throw some clothes on in the darkThe smell of coldCar seat is freezingThe world is sleepingI am numb Up the stairs to the apartmentShe is balled up on the couchHer mom and dad went down to CharlotteThey're not home to find us outAnd we driveNow that I have found someoneI'm feeling more aloneThan I ever have before She's a brick and I'm drowning slowlyOff the coast and

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I don't know what to do. argh. i don't want to stay with somebody i don't know! i don't want to stay in a small small room with some girl i'm not close to. i hate random roommates. it's driving me crazy. went to sch today and met my room mate. i'm so glad i'm home now and won't have to go back till like saturday for a lameass lab test. my god, i really hate sch. sch starts next wk for me while

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i'm feeling mildly depressed. having stayed home almost the whole day. i have this urge to get out of house and puff myself to death but that's the silliest ever to do. i WANT to quit. bleah. diana's coming to get me soon. i wished i had a car to drive right now. my sister's taking forever in the shower. damn it. this is such a random entry that  i don't know what to say.

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i've been wanting to talk to you since i got up at 10.30am.  it's 1.20pm here and it's still 7.20am over your side. the sun may have just risen, the birds chirping and still u will be sleeping ignoring the awaken surroundings. such a pig u are. i hate the time difference, when i'm about to go to bed, you're about to have dinner. when i wake up in the morning, you're in your sleepest of sleep. i

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1090129464393464562004-07-18T13:36:00.000+08:002004-07-18T13:44:24.393+08:00

argh, damn it. i feel fat. was reading sunday times today and there was this section on sports/active pple. they featured this girl that was my height, but she's godamn 7kgs lighter. oh my god. honestly, shes doesn't look 7kgs lighter than me! BAH! whatever, at least i finally realised that i need some serious exercise. maybe i should run 5km 3 times a wk, like that dumbo on the papers. my

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in 3 days time, he will be gone. in 2 wks time, sch will start. in 4 mths time, exams will come. in half a yrs time, i'll see him again.   sounds like a simple equation to our next rendevous. but will our hearts feel the same?

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so many changes take place every day. so many changes i detest. so many changes that hurts. so many changes that i cannot withstand. so many changes i cannot control. changes, changes.... some needed, some inevitable, some sub-conscious. but i know that this one change that will occur in a wk's time or so will change my everyday drastically. the distance will be overwhelming. the helplessness

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1089527908566570952004-07-11T14:29:00.000+08:002004-07-11T14:38:28.566+08:00

heyho. back from my orientation camp. it was gd gd fun. quite enjoyed myself. but it was so godamn tiring i must admit. there was this guy there, renchun, he's so charismatic. ahhh. i like him so much but NOT in that manner. today's sunday and i'm supposed to go my grandma's place. well, once again i woke up too late and i'm left all alone at home. sigh.... don't know what to do now.

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i once read a bk that said never to hold sadness back. if u adknowledge sadness and let it infiltrate you layer by layer, u'll wake up from it. just by embracing sadness. that i agree to a great extend. but right now, if sadness would to equate the opposite of light, i'll be capable of drowning the whole world in this cold darkness. would i wake to the morning light smiling or would i see the

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it was my 20th birthday 2 days ago. had my celebration with my close friends over at navin's place. right now, i just feel like shit. feels like a cyclone in my insides. quarrelled. couldn't sleep the whole of last night. cried a fair share too. lost. that's exactly how i feel now. he's leaving in 2 wks time. i feel sad, cheated, scared, anxious, mixed. i always tell him and him and him,

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my friends and i have dived into this abnormal attachment of watching EURO2004. maybe it's the little five or ten bucks we throw into S'pore pools or maybe we enjoy screaming with(or at) each other watching cute guys playing with a ball. hahaa. anyhow, i do enjoy watching soccer! been spending lotsa time with navin. i guess i want to and i ought to. he's watching soccer at a friend's place now. i

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work today was bad. i plan to quit tomorrow. can somebody pls get me a better job. i realised that s'poreans are not quite friendly. they're always in a mad rush in this even madder world. was just talking to my girlfriends abt holidaying end of the yr. just couldn't decide on where to go. different preferences and budgets i guess. but i would really love to visit navin in sweden. that would be

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1086800979490374112004-06-10T01:06:00.000+08:002004-06-10T01:27:26.193+08:00

watched the day after tomorrow with navin at lido today. surprisingly, i did enjoy the movie. although it was one of those pro-american independance sorta movie. did some shopping for my work clothes. haa. in the end i had to buy the gio white polo-tee. tmr's my first day of work. hope everything goes well. if u guys want to help me, just gimme a call and i'll tell u how. no obligations

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1086760610880723242004-06-09T13:49:00.000+08:002004-06-09T13:56:50.880+08:00

oh yeah! new layout. new pictures. new chatterbox! blogger is so much easier to use now. cool shit. arggghhh, i feel incredibly like the fat bastard in austin powers. i just ate a whole load for lunch. woke up at noon and i ate and ate and ate. oh trudy, smelly and i found a job at california fitness. we just grab pple in and we get paid. oh well, not too glamorous. ha. but at least it get us a

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1086671640733183062004-06-08T13:14:00.000+08:002004-06-08T13:42:24.690+08:00

floating market  patpong! (bangkok)  navin! 

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hi guys! i'm back from bangkok. it's 0243hrs and i'm at navin's house. my stupid flight was delayed. anyhow, bet u guys missed me terribly. lol. bangkok was AMAZING. i had so much fun i wanted to extend my stay. but since i'm flying on lousy budget airline, the hassle's too much. and of course i'm too broke for the stay. ah i don't feel like blogging right now. there're so many things to say. i'm

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Love is much like a dam: if u allow a tiny crack to form through which only a tickle of water can pass, that tickle will quickly bring down the whole structure, and soon no one will be able to control the force of the current. For when those walls come down, then love takes over, and it no longer matters what is possible or impossible; it doesn't even matter whether we can keep the loved one at

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1084374484282093602004-05-12T23:03:00.000+08:002004-05-12T23:08:04.283+08:00

i'm having this incredible headache, so much so that i wish it would explode and end this misery. navin's at zouk. my gfs are all out having coffee at bishan. argh. what am i doing home? i want to go out too! but i'm sure my dad will screw me if i do. sigh.

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1084110438089646002004-05-09T21:47:00.000+08:002004-05-09T21:54:05.793+08:00

my dad can be the most unreasonable figure in the family and he has proved himself right just a while ago over dinner. told him i was going to KL on the 20th and he flared. he exploded. started lecturing me on how i just know how to spend money and not save. so i explained to him that i saved to go on holidays and he asked me why can't i save on the long run? WTH? i saved my pocket money so i can

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i'm back! back home after 2 long long weeks of studying and more studying in school. had my last and worst paper today! arghh. kindda miss all my gfs. they were so nice to visit me on tues! all of 'em. so touched. love u all. but still they had their fun at zouk without me!!! must make it up ok? i wonder if anything juicy happened. lol. i moved outta hall. my computer's all home. just dumped 'em

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1083156859071065312004-04-28T20:54:00.000+08:002004-04-28T20:57:23.576+08:00

everytime i see his nick on msn, i can't help but feel a sense of unease, this queasy feeling. yesterday's nick was the world smile in flowers, today's 'pretty eyes'. sigh. he's really happy i guess. the nicks suggest. i still wonder if he's doing well. i've been fighting the urge to double click on his nick and chat with him. even checked if he had a picture on on his msn. silly me. i really

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1082996287505309892004-04-27T00:18:00.000+08:002004-04-27T00:21:10.700+08:00

je suis tres belle. lol. french today was BAD. i just hope to pass. a bad start to my ever so doomed exams. sigh. have got my next paper this wed. i've got so so so much to cover! ARGH. lucky joyce and chris have only 1 more paper to go! and yes. my dear NUSers finished long ago. even had her share of holidays! well, at least i'm looking forward to my short diving trip on the 13th! yippies. i've

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i swear at this rate, i'm never going to get my Bs or any shit. after reading chris' blog. yah, maybe we shld grow up and stop procrastinating all the time! i just came back from a day of not so productive studying. was tired through the day and had lousy topics to mug. sigh.... i wish i had more discipline and determinatin. i wish i had more brains. i wish i had more time. what happened trudy?

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nothing's gonna change my love for u. i'm sure at some pt of time in a relationship, your partner will say that! eeeeeks. ok pardon me, i'm listening to that song. anyways, exams are coming and i'm going crazy i swear. the glycolysis, gluconeogenesis, glycogenolysis.... my god. how can anybody remember all these shit metabolic mechanisms? ARHH. enough abt studies. oh yah! went zouk on wed! it was

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1081451358784489832004-04-09T03:09:00.000+08:002004-04-09T03:13:33.246+08:00

men complicate matters. terribly.

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1081168535080037122004-04-05T20:35:00.000+08:002004-04-05T20:38:16.873+08:00

looking at the scars on my hand, they remind me so much of him. how could i been so stupid? have i forgotten abt him? have i finally let him go? i don't know why i'm blogging abt this. but guess, the scars just bring back some vivid memories of us. US. when there was the us. i used to tell him that all i want was to be happy. the short sweet bitter memories we had. u think the grass is always

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i'm all alone at Lee Wee Nam library waiting for smelly to come lunch with me! did a bit of work though and chatted with this 31 yr old guy on msn that randomly added me on. had a tough night with navin by my side in my squeezy single bed in hall. woke up in the most grumpy state. rushed to lect, slept through it a bit, took a longer break than permitted and it ended early! not too bad afteralll.

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i hate him i hate him. i FUCKING hate him. fuck is his fav. word in his vocab list. it amazes me soo much. he's sucha an idiot. he's got such a bad temper. i really miss dzul.

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1080759110392907482004-04-01T02:51:00.000+08:002004-04-01T02:55:17.483+08:00

nobody really leaves me a msg when i'm searching for THE ONE with the right qualities as listed on the entry below. sigh. anyhow, just came back from jln kayu after a session of prata-ing with my friends. the chocolate prata is better than sex, according to joyce. the cheese prata is so yummy there too. cl, chris and trudy took so damn long to come as chris got lost. so in the end they only

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it's high time i update! ahhh, i'm stuck at home. nobody wants to bring me back to hall! sigh. but guess i shall see how it is staying at home and going to sch in the morn! and my god, how am i going to wake up in time? i really hope i'll get there in time for my 930am lect. hee. well well, let's see. i'm doing gd, fine i guess. navin and i, we're gd. everything's fine except for studies i guess.

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1079523822122786662004-03-17T19:43:00.000+08:002004-03-17T19:46:04.623+08:00

yesterday was navin's 22nd birthday. happy birthday dear. just realised in french class that every french name has a day to it. it's considered a birthday in france. cool shit. the closest to french name i have is elisee, i think. which is on the 16 of june. 2 birthdays! lol. ok back to navin. i bought him birkenstocks. i'm such a wonderful and perfect girl. hee. he tells me that he totally

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the whole gang of us were at Zouk yesterday! the full squad. it's been a long time i guess. some of us has grown outta it. chun lin (she bangs and she has new bangs. lol), chris (hoei! u dirtied my mouth.), diana (the forever slut that stinks but we still love her!), trudy (missy moody!), joyce (you shouldn't smoke too much!), jasmine (ks's sweety...), fiona (why are we always kissing?). all of

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today i've realised how much he really loves me. today i've realised that love can make a person lose his/her mind. today i also realised that love can't triumph over everything. love cuts and love heals. how ironic.

blacknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5637742.post-1078512267187543262004-03-06T02:44:00.000+08:002004-03-06T02:46:38.140+08:00

i've been neglecting my blog site real badly. guess i'm starting to outgrow this 'online dairy' thingy. or i'm just too lazy. lol. but still i love to write or just type with no topic or intentions. alrights. i'll update soon yah.

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he's so nice to me. i'm afraid i'll fall deeper in. surprised me in hall with fruits, milk, bread, home-made salmon spread and vegetable stew he made. had no idea he was coming. knocked on the door when i was racking my brains on my endless lab reports. hee. guess i was really pleasantly surprised. he's just too sweet. i'm lagging. laggin, real badly. i need help on enzyme kinetics graphs and

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