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paris.

how are u girls? i've decided that we shld mail each other for updates! alrights? i just went to paris a few days ago. it was absolutely beautiful. driving on the french autoroutes was superbly fun too. went up to abt 180-200km/h. loy went to like 220km/h max. mad. chris would enjoy driving here. bah. ah well, leave me your email addresses on this comments box and i'll mail u girls the next time yah. mine is elishalim@hotmail.com. meanwhile, here is a pic from paris.

moved moved!

i've kindda moved to http://blackpinky.multiply.com
cheers to that. i've uploaded more photos and i'll update there yah.

loy's with me now. he's sleeping in my bed. glad...

ma vue!

that's the tres jolie view i get from right outside my window. it just took me like 15 mins to upload this picture using my 56k connection. woah, i feel primitive in this country. if u can't tell, it's the graveyard. but i think it's pretty. all the white crosses sprouting from across the green field behind the trees. the shadows fall so prettily on the ground in the evening and in the morning, the mist just makes it so serene. j'aime beaucoup. lol. maybe i'm just weird and morbid enough.

Bonjour!

bonjour bonjour mes amis et mon cheri! Il y a plus temps depuis j'ecrive ici. ok screw the french alright. i'm having tremendous difficulty as to using the keyboard, cos it's bloody european and french. my letters M A and keys like ' ; , are all jumbled up. hopefully i can get my dial up working ASAP in my room. YES, dial-up. your eyes are not playing tricks on you. i'm in the computer lab now struggling to type with this shit keyboard.
well, that aside. i'm doing ok i guess. just that it's been real hard to switch totally to speaking french. breathing their air and eating their endless baquettes just ain't my kindda thing. miss the spicy food back in singapore already.
was so happy to hear from you girls last evening. really appreciate it. i think if i don't get married one day i'll marry one of u guys. lol. i totally adore my friends. my life would be so sucky without this bunch of wacky sweet lil things. muacks muacks!
évidemment, i miss you very much too. you've been a great support to me, from my preperations to france to till i'm here, missing home, my friends and you so much. thank you so much hunny. can't wait to see you in 2 wks time. i might be moving before your arrivée so bon! but i must really consider if i want or should stay alone cos that's gonna cost a lot more.
shit shit shit, just realised that i can't sms cos my credits are for calls? that is totally sucky. shit. i must go find out how it works. ok i'm going back to my room to try my internet connection. if it works i'll be so so so happy. muahahaa.
meanwhile, you girls study hard. i love u zx.

phuket

one of the khai islands at phuket. it was beautiful. bliss...

bliss

apologise for the long long hiatus of entries. been feeling too stifled to express my feelings. i am feeling happy these days. very happy with loy.

if u were to ask me what i see in loy, i wldn't be able to piece my thoughts into words coherent enough to express myself. my girl friends are probably gonna freak upon reading this entry of my bold admittance of my feelings for him.

the looming thought of my departure next sat just accentuates every feeling i've got. positive or negative. the extremities i've been feeling has taken a toll on me at some point of time but guess he has taught me to live and believe. to be more optimistic, in a sense.

i'm leaving for france next sat and i'm so not prepared. will be leaving for phuket this wed/thurs. short getaway with loy before i leave. will totally miss him. hope to spend some quality time with him. have been seeing him every single day for the past 2/3 wks? i'm just so afraid, so so afaid of loosing somebody i treasure and adore. like i have several other times. it has always been the long-dist problem. once again, i did not place myself in this situation by choice. it just happened. he'll be gone for 3 yrs. fiona will say that i'm immature to believe that it'll work. she's right in a sense. fear drives me into negativity. i once mentioned it to him that i do not believe and that i'm not going to try. i wish u'll say u'll stay.

he bought me the vintage puma jacket we saw together at hereen the other day. was so unexpected, i was almost blown away.

zx. smile. braces. adorable. evil look. cracks. lighten. heart. day. lips. smell. quirky. eyes. love. lost. fear.